My Life An Open Book Description
This book is about the main years of my adult life, which briefly includes my teenage years that I spent with my husband before we married. The book also talks about my struggle to have children from my own body when I was told as a child of twelve by the Spirit of the Lord that I would not have children. I rebelled against that knowledge. The book tells my story of what happened when I tried to go around that prophecy using adoption and all of the pain, anguish, and disappoint that my determination to have children no matter what caused my husband and children.Part 2Disobeying God is Hugh because there is no amount of duty, loyalty, tithes, offerings, or any other “work” that can be performed to persuade God to change his mind once he announces a judgment or future consequence or work upon a person. God is not a man. God does not lie. God wanted me to use my faith and believe his word and wait on him to change my infertility since He was the one who predetermined it in the first place. That infertility was for my good. I could not see that possible conclusion at the time. Therefore, I did not wait for God’s help. I tried to do things for myself. My disobedience opened the door and awakened dormant evil already in my home. My judgment for my disobedience was my blindness and inability to see the obvious. Blindness to proper decision-making cost me everything over time. God was right there in the middle of it all because he lives in me, but he did not violate my free will, but he warned me at every life changing junction not to move forward, but I did. God’s mercy and forgiveness endures forever for me because I am in Christ Jesus and I asked God to forgive me and help me and God did. But I had to go through every disobedient consequence of my actions. This book shares these negative consequences with the reader in hopes that he or she will learn from my experience and not travel the road of disobedience. For the road’s end may be pain and death before victory.